Sugar What???

Okay, so we live in times where men no longer have to 'work' before we (us females) give up the cookie. So one of my girlfriend's said, "If we're going to give it up- might as well get something out of it!" Which sounded logical enough, but then it hit me - if you're going to sleep with a guy for money, how different are you from the 69th Avenue prostitute?? I mean yeah you might be dating the guy but if your primary objective for being with him is money, I don't see much difference.
I met a guy. I'm not too sure how old he is, but judging from his looks and demeanor- he's over 25. His taste in music and the way his pants hang below the waist- I can safely say he's not over 35! Anyway, I was walking and he stopped and offered me a ride. I said no and proceeded on my path. "You're too beautiful to be walking on suc a hot day," he said. That seemed to catch my attention. He was right. I opened the front door of his red GTi and hopped in. He told me his name and I told him mine, then he asked me where I was going. He asked for my number and within 5 minutes I was dropped off! He called me later... "I'm a guy with very few needs. Money isn't a problem for me and you seem like the kind of girl who has a lot of expenses. How about you take care of my needs and I take care of yours? We can meet up on your terms and if you don't want to be seen with me in public that's fine!" He then asked for my account number and he deposited money in my account. I havent really talked to him since then but on broke days I think about about calling him! Could I be falling victim to the predators they call Sugar Daddys?? Who knows!



AND ON A LIGHTER NOTE.... 5 signs that you aren't HOTT!

#1 You dress like a loser
#2 You're kept in the friendzone
#3 Your body has expanded in places in shouldn't
#4 You're often told you have inner beauty
#5 You get a lot of fake numbers

That girl I've seen around

Okay, so missing people in Johannesburg is probably something "normal". Infact, at some point I was probably a missing person myself! I don't know, it's different this time, the first time I saw the poster on the glass doors of our campass cafeteria, my heart sank. I don't even know her personally, she's one of those random girls I've seen around on campass for the past 3 years, but seeing her picture on a 'missing persons' document made me really sad. I imagined what her family is going through: going to bed every night not knowing if your child is dead or alive and there's absolutely nothing you can do about it! She dissapeared without a trace. It's been more than a month now. I want to hope she's alive but watching the news everyday is really probing the splinter of doubt in my mind. Last week a naked, headless body (which according to police, fit her description) was found in an open veld in surrounding areas but when the family saw the body, they confirmed it wasn't her. A friend of mine says it would've been better if the headless body was their daughter's. Yes, if she's dead they need her body to bury, but finding her like that would've been more traumatic in my opinion. Is it better to live with hope that your loved one is still alive, or to find their body? I wouldn't know. I hope I never have to know.

A bleeding heart

Okay, so some days I just feel like, turning off my phone. Packing up my shit. Leaving without saying a word. And going ghost for a few weeks. It would just be great to be in my own little bubble, apart from the occasional anxiousness of waiting for a call I know I'm not going to receive. *sigh* Waiting is painful, trying to forget is painful, but not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering. Especially when the one person I really want to talk to, is the person I need to stay away from! Its funny, really. I'm starting to see him in a new light. As principled as I thought he was, I hate how he has double standards. When it comes to me- his principles and values are only an issue when it's convenient for him. I mean, if you're going to be principled: be principled monday to sunday! Further more, don't tell me you care about me and that you're there for me if it's just words! Everytime I move 2 steps forward- I manage to move 5 steps back. I almost regret the whole relationship. I can't help but wonder if my life would've been better, had I not met him. Not that I blame him for anything but hey, that's just how I feel!
Moral of this story: the scary thing about dating is that you're either going to get married or break up! :/ (Yes, that's me trying to depress you!)

The "Jaclyn syndrome"

Okay so, I was watching Bachelor Pad, (Yes I'm a hopeless romantic who watches reality shows where people fall in love- I've just realised how cheesy that sounds) Meanwhile... this season, Jaclyn and Ed have partnered up (because challlenges have to be completed in pairs). They do everything together: eat, sleep in the same bed, go on dates, etc. Slowly but surely, Jaclyn starts falling for Ed, he even appears to be sharing the same sentiment because he plays along. Then, one night,Chris Harrison (the presenter) asks Ed if he has a romantic connection with anyone in the house. Ed reveals infront of EVERYONE that he has no intentions of being in a relationship anytime soon and that his sole purpose of being in the competition is to win the money. Obviously, everyone suddenly looks at Jaclyn to see her reaction. It was quite evident that his words had pierced through her in multiple places! Her wounds now exposed, all she managed was a, " I have nothing to say to that." ( At this point: my jaw was on the floor). Later on in the episode, the two win a date to a secluded island and they decide to talk about the previous night. Jaclyn pours her heart out about how she's falling in love with him, and that she was under the impression that he was open to the idea. He tells her that he was still pursuing someone back in his hometown and that he sees her only as a friend and partner in the game. The news brings her to tears. He then goes on to tell her how wonderful and amazing she is, and that any guy would be lucky to have her, blah blah blah... She flashes a smile and ends up allowing him to spend the night with her. (Jaw on the floor again). I mean, how stupid is this girl??? He just blatantly told her that he'll never date her, but after a few romantic nothings- she was willing to jump into bed with him!!!!!

Then it hit me... I've been doing the same thing the last few weeks! I've been such an idiot. I've been telling myself that I accepted the break up but the truth is, I've been holding on. The only way I can really move on, is by cutting him out completely. So far so good. It's only been 4 days, and I'll admit I've dialled his number a few times but I never actually go through with the call. I'm glad I realised I had the "Jaclyn Syndrome" and it took an episode of Bachelor Pad to get myself out of the denial phase and into recovery. I just feel depressed, not just because of the break-up, but everything else that's been happening in my life. Atleast this is the one thing I can safely say, has a way forward!

Basic Fashion Tips (For guys & girls)

Okay, as ridiculous as the title post sounds, this is very neccessary! As an "established" fashion guru, it's time I point out the terrible fashion trends, or rather, disasters that I've been seeing around campass. I won't go as far as to post pictures of these fashion-offenders, but lets just hope this article somehow reaches their view!!
TIP 1: If you're dressed in all black, make sure the it's all the same black! (seriously, I've seen a pitch black top, with a blackish gray jacket and blackish -blue pants *vomits*) the same applies to grey.
TIP 2: GUYS- if you don't have muscles, stay away from sleeveless muscle tops.
TIP 3: If you're dark skinned, don't ever fool yourself into thinking that a pair of white framed sunglasses look good.
TIP 4: LADIES- Do not (I repaet) do not, wear sneakers with skirts, or (heaven forbid a dress). Even if you're trying to go for the Avril Lavigne look: that vibe is so 2004!
TIP 5: The new trend, LEATHER!! A season must-have. Guys- stick to leather jackets. Ladies, the short A-line leather skirt looks better on petite girls, but hey, if you really feel the need to channel your inner rockstar- go for it.
TIP 6: I've said it before, I'll say it again: Coloured bra, see-through top is super tacky! (Unless you're at a pool party or the beach)

TIP 8: Ladies, reds, nudes, pinks, and orange are summer's lipstick colours but please note: your skin tone will determine the shades you can use NOT the colour of your outfit!
TIP 9: Guys are now on the accessories trail. (Which I'm not too sure if I'm a big fan of) but, if you're going to do it- keep it minimal please. (If you're thinking of flavour-Flav's chain/clock- that is a definite no-no)
TIP 10: Ladies, make-up is supposed to enhance what you already have. If it starts looking like a peel-off mask, you've gone too far. Keep it simple during the day by choosing to emphasize one feature. so if you're going to do a red lip, keep the eyes simple (eye-liner and mascara).

P.S: Girls who wear leggings without any underwear- I'm onto you!!

One step forward, Five steps back!

Okay, so I know I said I was going to move on, but now I feel like I'm stuck in a phase where I just keep going back and forth on the same thing. From one perspective- my friends think that I'm being an idiot. I acknowledge that sometimes when you're the one in a situation, you don't see how stupid you're acting, but at the same time, they don't know all the facts! (and maybe that's just an excuse). There's one thing about men that I really hate though... why do they string us along? They always know exactly what their intentions are, and they are also very aware of our emotions, but they play along and give us hope. They make us feel like they can fulfill all our dreams so they give us nothing but empty promises!!! Are they so heartless? Maybe. He tells me one thing and does the opposite. Am I supposed to act on his words- or his actions. It's all a big mess. How long am I going to be feeling like this? One thing is certain- whenever my phone rings I hope it's him. The irony. I don't understand why you'd send someone goodmorning and goodnight messages after a break-up. He wants me to know that he's thinking about me, but why? Because he still cares? Then why did he abandon me at the time I needed him most? Oh right- because he needed to make a decision that would put him first! Or why does he carry on calling me by the names he used to use while we were dating!! The worst is him telling me that he still loves me- then he goes on to give the excuses for why it won't work. What fuck'ery! What then, will anyone ever fight for, if they can't fight for the people they love? Arg. I want to scream. It's making me crazy. I want to call him and tell him I love him, but I want to rant and hate him. Maybe even throw in a smack or two! Does he even deserve my love? He did, afterall give up on us. I feel like I'm not good enough- oh, but I'm good enough to f*ck every once in a while! I guess if there's something I've learnt after all of this: no one will ever accept me the way I am. I have baggage. At some point I had thought that if I just bared it all, he'd see my openess as a way to bond. Well that totally back fired! Lesson learnt! My next relationship, I'll have to keep a lot of things to myself. Especially about my family. *sigh* I miss being in a happy place... I think I need a drink...

It's all in a kiss!

A kiss can make you feel everything, or it can make you feel nothing. It's pretty much the seperator between friend and lover! Personally, there's no way we can go further if the kissing sucks! Trust me I've seen it all, (or should I say tasted it all). Here's a list of my top 6 worst kisses, in no particular order!

1. The "Hello-Nicotine" kisser- the smoker that secretes a flavour formed from his cigarettes and all you want to do is brush your teeth, floss, rinse with mouthwash and take a mint!
2. The "Lolly-pop licker"- he keeps his lips on yours, and jabbs his tongue in and out, the way a frog does when trying to catch a fly!
3. The "Take-your-breath-away" kisser- he usually has big lips, and they block the airway to your nose, THEN he decides to give you a never ending kiss and you literally have to push him away while you gasp desperately for air!
4. The Bitter- well as the name suggests, he takes nibbling way too seriously, and leaves you with a swollen lip.
5. The "Whale washer"- he makes improper use of his unlimited supply of saliva. At the end of it, you have to wipe away the access. YUCK!
6. The "Tick-tocker"- he contiuously rotates his head simultaneously with his tongue. What more can I say?


And my best kisses...
1. The "Honey!,I'm home" kiss- its usually given as a hello or goodbye. Short. Quick. Cute.
2. The Upside-down kiss- those of you who have watched spiderman will know what I'm talking about. So romantic *happy sigh*
3. The Suprise kiss- nothing like a gentle unexpected kiss, usually anywhere on the face.
4. The "I'm gonna rip your clothes off" kiss- Oh yeah, *wink wink* it's usually rough, involves lip bitting and more often that not, leads to erh... X-rated proceedings!
5. The "whisper" kisses- these usually happen when she's trying to talk and he's trying to shut her up. So it's pretty much a kiss inbetween each word, then somehow ends as *read number 4*


And places I hate getting kisses...
1. My ears, eeeew. Tongue+Ear=Turn off!
2. Toes. Enough said.
3. My back
4. My nose.


Look at the end of the day, it's all supposed to feel good, but what happens when your partner has bad kissing habits? AWKWARD!! Just find a nice way to tell them and show them how you prefer being kissed.