A Grey Day...

Today is that day... when u wish u could rewind what happened yesturday! That moment when you pushed yourself to do something- yet you knew the outcomes had a high probability of not turning out the way you want them!
Now it's impacted me in a way I had not predicted. How can someone have so much control over my emotions, Dammit- i should've never let it get this far!

Awkwad moments...

That awkwad moment:

• When you're taking a picture of yourself an dsomeone sees you
• When you say 'goodbye' to someon then end up walking in same direction
• When you open your wallet and it's empty
• When you open the fridge and there's nothing to eat
• When he introduces you as his GF, and you're lyk O_o huh????!!!

Quick brief

Okay, I know I've been neglecting my duties as Editor of this spectacular blog!! And there shouldn't be any excuses, but I can explain....

• first- I should let you know that I won a poetry competition (came 1st place) and recieved 500bux prize money
• second- there has been ALOT of developments in my love life!!!! but I think I should confirm certain things before I share with you!!
• third- things with mom are better- but I still haven't found my missing shoes
• fourth- I went shopping today and saw a cheetah print jacket that I just can't stop thinking of (yes- rather cheezy, I know)
• fifth-I'm finishing exams earlier that expected, so now I'm job hunting!!! (which should be fun- but turns out it's not)

hmmm, so now it's back to life-- hope to update you soon

It was all a dream...

Okay, so it was my girl, Tiger's birthday on tuesday (today is thursday) and I decided to go sleep over @ Club 5! Had allota fun, anyway, bachelor 4 finally asked about what was going on between us (obviously due to the fact that everyone was asking him about it- why dont people mind their own business?? Rolling eyes) Funny he chose to talk about it at 5am when i was on verge of knocking out, but none-the-less the verdict was that he doesn't do relationships! I wasn't suprised. But at the same time, hearing him say it was kind of disappointing! He just wants us to be friends with benefits (no strings attached) and HELLO- we've been doing that for over a year now, how long does he expect me to keep it up??? So I told him that I couldn't do it anymore (although part of me knows that it's not true) but I also know that if I do keep sleeping with him- I'm gonna end up hurt! and that's definately going to suck! Funny enough- he agreed!
Now here's the catch... next time I see him (and the time after that, and the time after that!) am I going to be able to resist? I mean lets face it- I usually give in, even when I  tell myself not to. Just that this time- I'm going to look like a total idiot lol! Oh well, just hav eto wait and see i guess...