The "Jaclyn syndrome"

Okay so, I was watching Bachelor Pad, (Yes I'm a hopeless romantic who watches reality shows where people fall in love- I've just realised how cheesy that sounds) Meanwhile... this season, Jaclyn and Ed have partnered up (because challlenges have to be completed in pairs). They do everything together: eat, sleep in the same bed, go on dates, etc. Slowly but surely, Jaclyn starts falling for Ed, he even appears to be sharing the same sentiment because he plays along. Then, one night,Chris Harrison (the presenter) asks Ed if he has a romantic connection with anyone in the house. Ed reveals infront of EVERYONE that he has no intentions of being in a relationship anytime soon and that his sole purpose of being in the competition is to win the money. Obviously, everyone suddenly looks at Jaclyn to see her reaction. It was quite evident that his words had pierced through her in multiple places! Her wounds now exposed, all she managed was a, " I have nothing to say to that." ( At this point: my jaw was on the floor). Later on in the episode, the two win a date to a secluded island and they decide to talk about the previous night. Jaclyn pours her heart out about how she's falling in love with him, and that she was under the impression that he was open to the idea. He tells her that he was still pursuing someone back in his hometown and that he sees her only as a friend and partner in the game. The news brings her to tears. He then goes on to tell her how wonderful and amazing she is, and that any guy would be lucky to have her, blah blah blah... She flashes a smile and ends up allowing him to spend the night with her. (Jaw on the floor again). I mean, how stupid is this girl??? He just blatantly told her that he'll never date her, but after a few romantic nothings- she was willing to jump into bed with him!!!!!

Then it hit me... I've been doing the same thing the last few weeks! I've been such an idiot. I've been telling myself that I accepted the break up but the truth is, I've been holding on. The only way I can really move on, is by cutting him out completely. So far so good. It's only been 4 days, and I'll admit I've dialled his number a few times but I never actually go through with the call. I'm glad I realised I had the "Jaclyn Syndrome" and it took an episode of Bachelor Pad to get myself out of the denial phase and into recovery. I just feel depressed, not just because of the break-up, but everything else that's been happening in my life. Atleast this is the one thing I can safely say, has a way forward!

Basic Fashion Tips (For guys & girls)

Okay, as ridiculous as the title post sounds, this is very neccessary! As an "established" fashion guru, it's time I point out the terrible fashion trends, or rather, disasters that I've been seeing around campass. I won't go as far as to post pictures of these fashion-offenders, but lets just hope this article somehow reaches their view!!
TIP 1: If you're dressed in all black, make sure the it's all the same black! (seriously, I've seen a pitch black top, with a blackish gray jacket and blackish -blue pants *vomits*) the same applies to grey.
TIP 2: GUYS- if you don't have muscles, stay away from sleeveless muscle tops.
TIP 3: If you're dark skinned, don't ever fool yourself into thinking that a pair of white framed sunglasses look good.
TIP 4: LADIES- Do not (I repaet) do not, wear sneakers with skirts, or (heaven forbid a dress). Even if you're trying to go for the Avril Lavigne look: that vibe is so 2004!
TIP 5: The new trend, LEATHER!! A season must-have. Guys- stick to leather jackets. Ladies, the short A-line leather skirt looks better on petite girls, but hey, if you really feel the need to channel your inner rockstar- go for it.
TIP 6: I've said it before, I'll say it again: Coloured bra, see-through top is super tacky! (Unless you're at a pool party or the beach)

TIP 8: Ladies, reds, nudes, pinks, and orange are summer's lipstick colours but please note: your skin tone will determine the shades you can use NOT the colour of your outfit!
TIP 9: Guys are now on the accessories trail. (Which I'm not too sure if I'm a big fan of) but, if you're going to do it- keep it minimal please. (If you're thinking of flavour-Flav's chain/clock- that is a definite no-no)
TIP 10: Ladies, make-up is supposed to enhance what you already have. If it starts looking like a peel-off mask, you've gone too far. Keep it simple during the day by choosing to emphasize one feature. so if you're going to do a red lip, keep the eyes simple (eye-liner and mascara).

P.S: Girls who wear leggings without any underwear- I'm onto you!!

One step forward, Five steps back!

Okay, so I know I said I was going to move on, but now I feel like I'm stuck in a phase where I just keep going back and forth on the same thing. From one perspective- my friends think that I'm being an idiot. I acknowledge that sometimes when you're the one in a situation, you don't see how stupid you're acting, but at the same time, they don't know all the facts! (and maybe that's just an excuse). There's one thing about men that I really hate though... why do they string us along? They always know exactly what their intentions are, and they are also very aware of our emotions, but they play along and give us hope. They make us feel like they can fulfill all our dreams so they give us nothing but empty promises!!! Are they so heartless? Maybe. He tells me one thing and does the opposite. Am I supposed to act on his words- or his actions. It's all a big mess. How long am I going to be feeling like this? One thing is certain- whenever my phone rings I hope it's him. The irony. I don't understand why you'd send someone goodmorning and goodnight messages after a break-up. He wants me to know that he's thinking about me, but why? Because he still cares? Then why did he abandon me at the time I needed him most? Oh right- because he needed to make a decision that would put him first! Or why does he carry on calling me by the names he used to use while we were dating!! The worst is him telling me that he still loves me- then he goes on to give the excuses for why it won't work. What fuck'ery! What then, will anyone ever fight for, if they can't fight for the people they love? Arg. I want to scream. It's making me crazy. I want to call him and tell him I love him, but I want to rant and hate him. Maybe even throw in a smack or two! Does he even deserve my love? He did, afterall give up on us. I feel like I'm not good enough- oh, but I'm good enough to f*ck every once in a while! I guess if there's something I've learnt after all of this: no one will ever accept me the way I am. I have baggage. At some point I had thought that if I just bared it all, he'd see my openess as a way to bond. Well that totally back fired! Lesson learnt! My next relationship, I'll have to keep a lot of things to myself. Especially about my family. *sigh* I miss being in a happy place... I think I need a drink...

It's all in a kiss!

A kiss can make you feel everything, or it can make you feel nothing. It's pretty much the seperator between friend and lover! Personally, there's no way we can go further if the kissing sucks! Trust me I've seen it all, (or should I say tasted it all). Here's a list of my top 6 worst kisses, in no particular order!

1. The "Hello-Nicotine" kisser- the smoker that secretes a flavour formed from his cigarettes and all you want to do is brush your teeth, floss, rinse with mouthwash and take a mint!
2. The "Lolly-pop licker"- he keeps his lips on yours, and jabbs his tongue in and out, the way a frog does when trying to catch a fly!
3. The "Take-your-breath-away" kisser- he usually has big lips, and they block the airway to your nose, THEN he decides to give you a never ending kiss and you literally have to push him away while you gasp desperately for air!
4. The Bitter- well as the name suggests, he takes nibbling way too seriously, and leaves you with a swollen lip.
5. The "Whale washer"- he makes improper use of his unlimited supply of saliva. At the end of it, you have to wipe away the access. YUCK!
6. The "Tick-tocker"- he contiuously rotates his head simultaneously with his tongue. What more can I say?


And my best kisses...
1. The "Honey!,I'm home" kiss- its usually given as a hello or goodbye. Short. Quick. Cute.
2. The Upside-down kiss- those of you who have watched spiderman will know what I'm talking about. So romantic *happy sigh*
3. The Suprise kiss- nothing like a gentle unexpected kiss, usually anywhere on the face.
4. The "I'm gonna rip your clothes off" kiss- Oh yeah, *wink wink* it's usually rough, involves lip bitting and more often that not, leads to erh... X-rated proceedings!
5. The "whisper" kisses- these usually happen when she's trying to talk and he's trying to shut her up. So it's pretty much a kiss inbetween each word, then somehow ends as *read number 4*


And places I hate getting kisses...
1. My ears, eeeew. Tongue+Ear=Turn off!
2. Toes. Enough said.
3. My back
4. My nose.


Look at the end of the day, it's all supposed to feel good, but what happens when your partner has bad kissing habits? AWKWARD!! Just find a nice way to tell them and show them how you prefer being kissed.

Moving Forward!

Okay, so if you read my last post:you'd probably think I was sounding suicidal! Not to worry, there seems to be some light at the end of my tunnel!! After a very long week, I'm not feeling so sad anymore. I think the break-up hit me hard because I didn't see it coming and the main reason I was finding it so hard to let go was because I thought it would be really difficult to walk away from someone whose been one of the prime factors in my life for some time. The good news is: I recently realised that moving on won't be as hard as I had imagined it to be The bad news: I'm still a little unsure about the path I should take with my "ex". Gosh, it's weird even saying that. Sometimes I literally have to remind myself that I'm single! I mean is it ever really possible for people who were in a relationship to be genuine friends? My head is telling me to cut him off completely and forget I even knew him (which is what I've always done with my previous ex's) and it works! Although this time- I don't want that. I don't want to get to a point where I don't care, but how do I do that without compromising my "moving on". *sigh* He was there for me through such a difficult time and even though he opted out before I could extend the same courtesy- I still want to be there for him (Just as a friend.) So this is the decision I'm stuck with, hopefully I'll have an answer by the end of the week. The new news: So much to everyone's dismay, I've been poking around for nominees for a new relationship! YES, you read that right! And yes, it may be too soon, but it doesn't feel wrong. Naturally, I'm someone who doesn't sit well with being lonely so a new relationship might just be what I need. (This theory has been tested and the results were positive before). So right now the options are looking good. I won't jinx anything by giving away anything yet, and before you even think about it- I won't give away the cookie either! Honestly I had even forgotten how easy it is for me to hook guys. The hard part is deciding which one I want. So lets keep our fingers crossed that my date will go well today ;)